Welp, now you know.
Can some other grand multipara confirm that I should be looking 6 months pregnant at 7 weeks? My bellybutton is even starting to pop out!
(Weird water spots courtesy of ?)
And thank you for all the happiness and congratulations, by the way!! You guys are the best.
Were we trying? (me imagining you asking me this...)
Nope! Not trying, not not trying. It usually takes 5 or 6 or more cycles for me to get pregnant so I usually just don't sweat it and figure it'll happen when it's supposed to happen. And I'm guessssssing that's the case here (jk, I know it's the case) although it feels a little...
Didn't I just do this?
This was my first thought when I saw those two little lines. Not hallelujah, not tears of joy, not tears of sadness, either... just.... didn't this just happen?
And I know it didn't. Peter will be 1 next month giving these two a 19 month space but life seems to be forever speeding up so it's easy to feel like being pregnant with Peter was just yesterday. But I know it will be perfect.
How else am I feeling?? (So nice of you to ask in my imagination!)
I thought I was feeling great and that maybe the spirit of death was passing over me this pregnancy but then I realized I wasn't 7 weeks yet! 7 weeks = die.
It could be so, so much worse and I know that. I am counting my blessings. And I am pregnant! Blessing in and of itself, right? But sometimes being pregnant SUCKS. Can we just call a spade a spade and say it sucks? I am tired, falling asleep all ze time and pretty barfy most of the day and craving delightful things to nourish me and my child like carne asada, egg mcmuffin's, glazed donuts, taco bell, and hot sauce dumped on everything.
You might think therein lies the key to my sickness but when I am eating all the junk, I feel like a million bucks.
What is that?!
Aside from all of the complainy stuff, I am feeling overwhelmingly grateful for our life right now. For as yucky as I may feel, we get to stay home all day and take life as slow as we want. We can scale back when we need to and do phonics on the couch or on my bed, at 9 or at 2. And on top of that, it's pretty good medicine to just be able to hear them playing in the other room, totally engrossed in whatever, be creative and learning all the time, all around me.
(And fighting and watching Netflix and getting stuck in neighbor's trees, etc)
How else am I feeling (again)?
6 feels... huge. I feel like I just blinked my eyes and here I am. I feel like I just had two babies and I looked at mother's of six and thought that what they had was a lifetime away for me. Yet here I am. I blinked and here I am.
Are there any other important logistics that you might be facing this pregnancy around?
Why yes, yes there are.
A car! We have officially maxed out our minivan and are in need of... more. It's funny, though, when you google "best cars for large families" the only thing that comes up is minivans. THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEAN BY LARGE FAMILY. I mean large(r).
It seems to me the choices are: airport shuttle, Sprinter, giant Nissan, Suburban (with the optional 4th row in the future making it a 12 pass), limo (privacy window, heeeeyy), school bus, rv. What kind of giant vehicle are you driving? Tell me more.
Until then, I'll just be here with a bag of m&m's and some milk. And some pizza.
*All melodrama aside, life is always a total gift. I just read Molly's beautiful post about her struggles with secondary infertility and it was a perfect reminder for me to be mindful about offering up any suffering or discomfort this pregnancy for all my sisters longing for babies. My prayers are with you all. xo
More takes yonder!